My mom & I just made our thanksgiving baking menu. It’s gonna be: 2 pumpkin pies, banana bread, pumpkin bread, chocolate pie, lemon bars, rolls, & some bread I haven’t decided on yet. Making it all Wednesday, just my mom & I. Kinda excited to bake so much. I have an entirely different Thanksgiving menu to do for my dads which is gonna be the 1st week of December. It’s the season of endless baking & I’m loving every second if it.

Just spent $30 on baking stuff but I’m making brownie cupcakes filled & topped with strawberries & ganache, vanilla cupcakes w/ buttercream frosting, chocolate chip cookies, & peanut butter butterfinger cookies. 3 out of the 4 are for the ACOP boys & everything is homeade. Making the cookies tonight & cupcakes tomorrow. I’ll post pics when I’m done. :)

Haha my mom just called me & sang me happy birthday. She also told me that on my 10th bday I came into her room crying saying, “I didn’t grow at all!” My mom told me I grow all year round & I said, “nuh uh when you turn 10 you pop up a few inches.” haha how funny is that?

Today I received one of the greatest compliments ever. I was talking to my friend Ben on the phone. We had lost touch for a few months, and he finally got around to calling me letting me know he moved and got a new number. Well, he was talking and said to me, “I don’t ever want to lose contact with you. I truly believe you were put in my life for some huge reason to help me with something, and I just don’t know what it is yet.” and I told him who knows. He continued, “No I’m serious, I’ve never met a woman like you. I met you when you were 18, and you already had yourself figured out. You know who you are. Don’t get me wrong I’ve met some great women in my 30 years on this planet, but none a woman so young. You just have this certainty about you, something most people don’t have. You have this older vibe, like you’ve been through life already. I mean hell when I met you 3 years ago, I was just becoming a man, and you at 18, a real woman. I’ve never met someone that is so sure of who they are and where there going. Now you just gotta find that thing to change the world.” I told him that was one of the best compliments I’ve ever gotten, and that I decided I was going to start culinary school next year. He says, “Shit I’ve been telling you that for years, you’ve been baking me amazing things since we met, you cook like crazy.” and I said something about how much he enjoyed something I made once, and he interjected and said; “You love that don’t you? When someone enjoys what you make them. When they think it’s the best of something they’ve ever had. I tell yah you got the chops, you’re amazing at baking. And uhh if you ever need someone to test out your creations, you know who to call.” hahahaha Talk about a confidence booster. He moved to Phx though, so honestly almost all my closest friends live in Phoenix and California now. LAME! Another reason why Tucson fails. Oh well, just wanted to write this down in case I ever need a confidence booster haha

It is really pathetic what money can do to people. They can make you ruin an 8 year friendship or a 15 year family friendship. I’ll never understand how people can become so greedy. All over $1700 or $100 it’s all not worth a friendship. Lying on the other hand is & when you lie to my face & lie to other people about all the above situations you ruin any chance of a friendship. 2009 can kiss my ass. I’ve lost my best friend & close family friends all over lies about money. Seriously, why do people have to lie? What’s so hard about being honest? What happened to loyalty. I’m so done! I’m so over being hurt for trying to do the right thing & help people out. Why do I gotta be so nice? I wish sometimes I could be as much of asshole as people are to me! Just so pissed off about always being the one that’s fucked over.

I offically lost my job for things the person I worked with did. She blamed them all on me & threw me under the bus for $$ i’ve known her 15 years & this is how I’m repaid?! So over helping people only to have them fuck me over. From now on if you want my help I have to trust you. & if I do trust you & you screw me over don’t ever expect me to talk to you ever again. I’m done being used, I’m done being fucked over, I’m done being hurt. So if you can’t treat me with respect & have some integrity, & be honest. You won’t be in my life. I’m done & over it. I deserve a simple amount of respect & if you can’t give that then get the fuck out of my life!

In honor of Halloween I’m gonna tell you my dads favorite halloween joke: a vampire walks into a bar & says “I’ll have a bloody mary!” another vampire walks in & says, “I’ll have a bloody mary.” A 3rd vampire walks in & says “I’ll have a cup of hot water” the bartender is like “okay your buddies walked in & ordered bloody marys, what’s up with that?” The vampire pulls out a used tampon and says, “I’m having tea!”

Gross huh? hahaha